I struggle with trusting others with my deep brokenness. As a child being one of six I used creative ways to get my parents' attention. I am gifted with a loud voice, so I would increase my volume to get attention. I would also share a lot of information about myself. I was a great example for what TMI (too much information) is.
It wasn't until adulthood when that too much information backfired. I shared my brokenness with those who either didn't care, didn't know how to help, or for another reason which I still am not sure, responded in an unloving way. I trusted a few people I assumed I could trust and they were not trustworthy. Because of these experiences I began to keep more and more of my hurts and struggles to myself. This was not healthy and I am still dealing with the consequences of living life for so long like this.
We all have this brokenness in us. I thought of an analogy of our hurts and pain being a treasure of jewels broken and unrefined. They are beautiful...or could be beautiful if we would let Jesus come and heal the wounds.
God often uses other people to help us in our need. I need to share my brokenness with others in order to heal. Call things what they are. Give them a name so they loose their power.
It is really hard to trust others with this treasure. Especially because not everyone understands or is willing to understand. I'll share my broken treasure with someone and they will only see broken up pieces of cement. They don't think my box of rocks should be anywhere near a treasure chest..
It takes vulnerable, broken, and humble people who have learned what Jesus' love really is in order for them to see my box of rocks as jewels that need to be refined, mended, cleaned and put into beautiful settings that can be displayed to show God's glory.
We need to be honest and vulnerable. Genuineness is so necessary for any hope of healing and growth. "Don't throw your pearls before swine" is not just wisdom and truth. It includes our deep needs and who we are.
Perhaps we should pray that we can be open and honest about our joys and sorrows. Pray that God would send you a support group who will value your hidden treasure of brokenness and will help you. Pray for discernment to know who those few trusted people will be. Pray you too can be that person for someone else.
If you are guilty of not being able to handle or accept others who are broken, I encourage you to ask God to show you how to see others how Jesus does. Be willing to look at your own life and see where your judging heart or selfish spirit has caused you to miss out on being part of changing broken stones into beautiful treasure.
"But if we hope for what we do not see, we wait for it with patience. Likewise the Spirit helps us in our weakness. For we do not know what to pray for as we ought, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groanings too deep for words. And He who searches hearts knows what is the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for the saints according to the will of God. And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to His purpose. For those whom He foreknew He also predestined to be conformed to the image of his Son, in order that He might be the firstborn among many brothers. And those whom He predestined he also called, and those whom He called He also justified, and those whom He justified He also glorified."
Romans 8:25-30 ESV
https://bible.com/bible/59/rom.8.25-30.ESV
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